Today, I lost myself in desire. And today, I found my way back.

Today, I decided to no longer succumb to pleasure. And today, I craved it.

Why should we experience delight and shame from things alike?

Why is more never enough and too much?

I wish to experience everything without guilt!

I need to be satisfied without consequences!

A fool is what I am

For no pain is without pleasure

To crave one is to crave both.

 

To understand this is to abandon suffering

Once I see beyond the mirage of happiness, I will unveil the illusion of pain.

I will embrace boredom

Deaf and lost where the screaming voice won’t find me.

 

But how empty. How pitiful.

What will you live for, you might ask?

For absolutely nothing! To simply be content.

What else could it be?

 

See for yourself:

Are pleasures yours or body’s?

Are desires yours or society’s?

Is joy yours or the moment’s?

There is always a master and I have chosen mine:

The Nothingness that never demands, never hopes.